We had a busy, but productive weekend with church events, Essential oil classes, and a Pancake Feed for Papa…..
The church Dale grew up in, the one Papa still attends, is so incredible! When they have things to volunteer for, sometimes there are so many helpers, they literally have to stand around, because there is more people than work. That says a lot about the size of their hearts, I think.
My favorite part, is how they rally around each other in times of tragedy like this, a Family Unit for sure. They dedicated half the proceeds of the Pancake Feed to go to Papa’s medical expenses, the other half to a family in need.
We have been so blessed by the meals they are bringing, and the many phone calls. They are concerned about Don, and we are blessed they check in.
It is both a difficulty and a privilege, to be his care givers at this time. To go to his appointments with him, to make phone calls on his behalf seeking new alternatives, to dine with him each evening. To glance around the table when Papa rushes to the bathroom mid-meal to vomit, reassuring the kids that he will be right back, that his tummy sometimes gets upset from the cancer in his body. To go ahead and start the kids on supper, while Papa quietly sobs in the living room, because he can’t get out of the chair for 10 minutes, due to partial paralysis that comes and goes.
We will need to take him to the store, the doctor, and church now, as he will no longer be driving. It’s just not safe.
Dale drives him home for bedtime, as the walk from our back door to his front door is too much for him. In fact, he can hardly manage his front steps anymore. We are so very thankful God allowed him to move next door almost 2 years ago now. He knew what we needed before we did.
Papa will need to quit his job and go on disability after 40 years in the business.
It takes 90 days to start drawing disability. And the reality is, we may not have that kind of time.
This fundraiser could not have come at a more perfect time. At last count, they raised $6,000!!!! And they are still selling Sausage. You guys, that is a HUGE answer to prayer!!!!
It’s hard to watch such an energetic, hunter, fisher, helper to all, be completely reliant on others. I can’t fathom emotionally, how this all is for him, Mr. Independent himself!
The tears come more often now, this from a man who Dale has never seen cry. We tell Papa that it’s good for him. Good for his soul, his healing, and the Creator Himself bottles them up in Heaven. They are meaningful to our Father in Heaven.
We planned his funeral service last week, we laughed, we cried. Taking notes as he picked pal bearers and special hymns, camo wear and caskets.
We have gone to the Annual Pancake Feed as long as I can remember. I just had no idea we’d ever watch Papa be the recipient of the proceeds from 2 of them.
Sitting around the table over Pancakes, Biscuits & Gravy, the best whole Hog Sausage you’ve ever tasted, and some Orange Juice, I found checking on him. Seeing how he was interacting with people, watching people watch him, concern knitting their brow.
We all know our time with him is drawing to a close.
And we all feel completely helpless.
Helpless, but not hopeless.
In Christ, we are never without hope. We know Papa gets a new body in a Paradise far beyond our wildest imaginations, more amazing than our earthly bodies and brains could even handle.
And so I sang, Sunday morning, with arms stretched high…..
WHAT A PRICELESS GIFT UNDESERVED LIFE
HAVE I BEEN GIVEN
THROUGH CHRIST CRUCIFIED
YOU CALLED ME OUT OF DEATH
YOU CALLED ME INTO LIFE…
NOW THROUGH THE CROSS IM RECONCILED
AT THE CROSS YOU BECKON ME
YOU DRAW ME GENTLY TO MY KNEES
AND I AM LOST FOR WORDS……
I AM SWEETLY BROKEN, WHOLLY SURRENDERED.
We are sweetly broken at the foot of the Cross that saved our Papa from eternal damnation, the same cross that eases our sorrow, with promises of eternity.
We wholly surrendered his healing to a Father, who has had his days numbered from the time he took his first breath, knowing exactly how many moments on Earth he was to have.
How many days he needed to be a blessing to others, and example for Christ, and the hands and feet of Jesus. He has been all those things, to many, many people…….
So now we wait, we hold our breath and take each day as it comes. We are tentatively planning things for Spring and Summer, anticipating some time at the lake, hoping to see the grandkids fish with their Papa at least once when the warmer weather comes.