Writing from my heart at Marathon Mom today, our monthly theme was Embrace.
The hardest thing I have had to “Embrace”?
Not just embrace it, but accept into my arms as a part of my love story. Not just to survive it, but thrive in SPITE of it.
I will never stop talking about what God did in my marriage.
People hate that. They do. They think it means I haven’t moved on. That I haven’t forgiven Dale. That I keep running back to the past and throwing it in his face.
If you think that is my purpose of talking about our story, then you are totally missing the point.
Talking about our struggles only points the way to a God who uses our brokenness.
To stop talking, is to stop pointing a hurting world, to HIM.
Do you know the triumph of coming face to face with the devil, and instead of cowering, spitting in that stupid jerks face?
Do you see the beauty of kicking aside the heap of rubble, of a dream he destroyed, and finding a still firm foundation of Christ Jesus underneath it all?
Do you know the Victory of defeating a plan the devil himself dreamed up to end your marriage and destroy your family?
You better believe I was shaking in my boots. That my fight or flight reaction screamed, “FLIGHT, FLIGHT! Run away, start over, lick your wounds in the darkness, no one can know this awful truth…..”
I am proud to say we made it. That FIGHT won out over flight.
Is that it is our privilege and honor to shout to the World:
With Christ we cannot be defeated!!!!!!
We wear our story, our “War Wounds”, our marriage limp, as a badge of honor.
A symbol of Victory, glimmering and shining for all the World to see that in Christ, all things are possible.
“Other people are going to find healing in your wounds. Your greatest life messages and your most effective ministry will come out of your deepest hurts.” Rick Warren